#‎give_me_ur_loaded_gun‬ & ‪#‎I_will_provide_salvation_with_condition‬
Now , here I am standing , holding ur loaded gun,
I thought you would hand me a pistol,
But it happened to be a shot gun.
Yeah!!! I am holding it, to shoot you right at ur mind,
Blow up and make u free from ur dreadliest crime .
Then what , if I shoot u !!!
Then what, if you misjudged me !!!
Then what, if you don't give chance to explain!!!
then what , if u call me a stabber !!!
You couldn't over rule ur doubt .
Just because some bitches say I am their dog
You were busy commenting nonsense, leaving me numb and dumb.
I created lullaby for u ,
you thought it to be cacophony .
I tried to mix sweet melody of my essence in air,
the fragrance of my body, poison you said was there.
There's problem in ur motor nerves,
suffocation was actually the result of ur sensory nerve.
For you sense whats not true.
My perpetual love was as pure as a newly born baby
Never thought ur insecurity would turn into betray ,
I am sorry , my love couldn't convince you ,
May be my love was a fault,
Believe me !! tried hard , couldn't correct,
there was no default.
I was fucked off the moment I read ur note ,
I broke into pieces,
The time you said " I was stabbing"
Still couldn't believe ur quote.
Hey girl!!! who corrupted ur mind with this shit??
The time u left me,
You wrote condolence to ur own life .
Even a stabber needs a knife , i was handed a gun.(haha)
Though the beats of heart enchanted ur name,
though i could see perfection in ur imperfections
though i loved u with all of me,
Hat's off (2)!! to ur skeptic thoughts,
All in vain , you gave this the name of game .

 Will ur soul get deliverance after knowing you were wrong?
Wait,
I will give u the salvation , not with a loaded with a loaded gun .
with a bottle of whiskey full of memories ,
Come on !! strike it right into ur mind.
I will still be waiting for u ,
if u want to be mine,
For my love is perpetual, u cannot turn it down.

#‎u_say_love_is_beyond_anything‬ , ‪#‎but_u_doubt_the_next_morning‬

ohh !!! pretty damsel, u say present is everything but what about my past
Everyday is new for you , I howl for the past
Every night before sleeping , I plan for tomorrow
My present is good, dark is my future .
you see ...
Though I am silently crying ,I smile to wipe ur tears,
"Laugh"I keep on faking it, for the truth is bitter , u won't accept it.
You might not know who am I , but ur heart know,
Every time I approach you, why u freeze like snow?
Yesterday you were mine , today u ask my identity
The essence of heart is old ,
only the fillings of mind has changed it's original core.
Love is beyond anything, God keeps on testing me,
When I say " I love u " , why don't u believe me?
I keep on reciting our stories of past,
Just to spend our present together
Trust me. trust me !! when i see ur eyes
the residing glory can't help me stay farther .
I try to explain the mysterious true lies concealed in my eyes ,
Every time you fall,
for the unfathomable love you find in my eyes .
When you feel sth for me ,
that's the moment I fall for you,
I never blame your memory ,
i blame myself for my skeptic thought,
Not because you play me, Alzheimer you have they say me .(‪#‎line‬ ‪#‎copied‬ ‪#‎anjil‬ ‪#‎adhikari‬ )
I become imbecile to make you smile
The utterance of "3 lovely words " you do at the end of the day
makes me a worthy man
to make our each day first lovestory.

#Lost_In_Nostalgia

 with the end of summer , monsoon hits the heaven.
trees starts shaking , singing song of discern.
Eccentricity touches all animals
delighted heart jumps in the pond of feeling,
wet paper console the writer , enduring the pain of poking


Wind counter-attacks the woods,
leaves fall down, squirrel and goose find their foods,
The crunchiness of dried leaves and the watery mouth,
slips down many agonizing writer , the aroma of freshy amaranth.


Captivating blueness of sky reflected by sea ,
Caged birds fly miles ahead to quench thirst,
Gruesome fish dives unleashing the happiness ,
Feelings synchronized and intense, even ragamuffin becomes a writer.


Sea looses it's virginity as king fisher penetrates for meal,
Hippo laughs ,whales amaze, crocodiles frown,
Instant movement leaves them "how ? "
Humid atmosphere is result of rain,
Sun compensates, giving rise to seven colorful babe's.
Brown eyes, milky white complexion , reddish temples with a purple gown
Sketches the words of love
Productive ground holds the beauty ,
Enjoying soft and smoothy blackened nailious fingers
Sweep of soil particles , writing the story of how we end ........ 

Feelings were poured down , 
 Within the heart ,
 travelling around till muscular contraction of finger .
 Blissful, delighted, thought to share it.
 but my intimates were the first to read ,
P.K "ta poet bhais"
 was the reaction.
 first time found sth imp in my name.
 Still unconvinced shared to others,
 in order to bounce back with more new mysteries.
 Oppositely ,
 Others laughed
 Some criticized
saying u must not be writing
 Some egoistic comments , buuhhh....


 I was afraid ,
 afraid to tear hurdle
 afraid to erase distance
 Between feeling and writing .
 Ohh No!!!! my writing isn't relevant ,
 should stop writing .
 Then,
Somewhere on the earth,
 someone was waiting waiting to read it,
 with more and more understanding
 In boxed a message
 said "was related to her"
Showed the mirror of her ,
 What??? I exclaimed
 Reaching the peak of happiness
 In spite, the happiness ,
 found someone who really comprehend me.
 But was sad to hear ,
 she was related to .
 With null mind ,


 I explained the fact
 Giving proper examples
 examples of career
 meanwhile ,
 I want to write till death bed ,
 was her reply.
 The turning point ,
 turning point of my life
 words became my destiny
 I started writing growing everyday
 She embraced my charm of writing.
 thanks to you ,
 Always think ,
 I will never understand you always leave my hands up to you .